Monday, March 23, 2009
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Updating this blog of mine
Please keep on reading, still updating!!!!
Thank you guys, new stories and experiences that will make you cry, laugh, feel angry, sentimental and happy!!!
Please bear with me.
I love you guys
Rocco xxxxx
Thank you guys, new stories and experiences that will make you cry, laugh, feel angry, sentimental and happy!!!
Please bear with me.
I love you guys
Rocco xxxxx
Wednesday, November 07, 2007
More texts while away
Some of my recent texts: (My sent texts are in pink)
November 6, 2007
“Bisous bebe bisous. I m at work. Hope u fine. Miss ya.” Julien 08:53pm
Mummy 09:08 "No tengo mucha bateria pero llegaré como a la 1.20pm por maleta. Ya he facturado. Un besito mami tengo muchas ganas de verte. Te quero"
Mummy 10:30 "Encima va retrasado. Ayer tan puntual, hoy que no sale. Ley de murphy total. Que asco! eso mami, ve para las 1.45 o 2 y si llego antes te llamo y espero. Te quero"
‘’Vale no te preocupes te esperote quiero’’ Mommy 10:32am
Julien Lust 20:16 "Bébé...? Where are u? Whimper whimper"
“Pompino. My mouth is full. Lol call me now.” Julien 8:18pm
November 7, 2007
"Hi my boy. I ll b in kings cross the whole day. Big kiss. Miss ya. Speak later. I m late already lol. Bisous" Julien 08:15am
Julien Lust 11:57 "Cou cou how's the cutest guy in Kings cross doing? Was it open today? I miss u so much. Love ya sxx"
Julien Lust 14:49 "Hi ya. It's so hot here, 24 degrees. Big bisou. Say hello to brazilians, ugly feet and the blond and brunette cuty ones. Speak low."
"Hi ya. Just off of kings cross. On the bus now for the gym. Travelled to new ebbsfleet station. Nothing is really finished yet. Miss u. Think i ll go to the movies after gym. Didnt see rob at all. Did u reach him?" Julien 4:11pm
‘’Allo t ou. Je m'ennuie. Je suis fatigue je v aller dodo’’ Julien 9:43pm
Julien Lust 23:07 "Cou cou bébé what u've done this eve? Have u made any new acquaintance? Just finish dinner with mom and her bf. Goin to bed soon. Biz"
November 6, 2007
“Bisous bebe bisous. I m at work. Hope u fine. Miss ya.” Julien 08:53pm
Mummy 09:08 "No tengo mucha bateria pero llegaré como a la 1.20pm por maleta. Ya he facturado. Un besito mami tengo muchas ganas de verte. Te quero"
Mummy 10:30 "Encima va retrasado. Ayer tan puntual, hoy que no sale. Ley de murphy total. Que asco! eso mami, ve para las 1.45 o 2 y si llego antes te llamo y espero. Te quero"
‘’Vale no te preocupes te esperote quiero’’ Mommy 10:32am
Julien Lust 20:16 "Bébé...? Where are u? Whimper whimper"
“Pompino. My mouth is full. Lol call me now.” Julien 8:18pm
November 7, 2007
"Hi my boy. I ll b in kings cross the whole day. Big kiss. Miss ya. Speak later. I m late already lol. Bisous" Julien 08:15am
Julien Lust 11:57 "Cou cou how's the cutest guy in Kings cross doing? Was it open today? I miss u so much. Love ya sxx"
Julien Lust 14:49 "Hi ya. It's so hot here, 24 degrees. Big bisou. Say hello to brazilians, ugly feet and the blond and brunette cuty ones. Speak low."
"Hi ya. Just off of kings cross. On the bus now for the gym. Travelled to new ebbsfleet station. Nothing is really finished yet. Miss u. Think i ll go to the movies after gym. Didnt see rob at all. Did u reach him?" Julien 4:11pm
‘’Allo t ou. Je m'ennuie. Je suis fatigue je v aller dodo’’ Julien 9:43pm
Julien Lust 23:07 "Cou cou bébé what u've done this eve? Have u made any new acquaintance? Just finish dinner with mom and her bf. Goin to bed soon. Biz"
Monday, November 05, 2007
Flying to my mom
Finally, I am going to see my mom.
This is my flight info:
Flight Information Summary
Airline reference (locator):: 3LRGHH
Passenger: Me
Carbonwise: No
London Gatwick Apt (LGW) To Madrid Barajas Apt (MAD)
Airline: AIR PLUS COM (A7)
Flight Number: A7 0233
Departure Terminal: N
Class: Economy
Departing: 17:40 Mon 5 Nov 2007
Arriving 20:55 Mon 5 Nov 2007
Arrival Terminal: 1
Madrid Barajas Apt (MAD) To London Gatwick Apt (LGW)
Airline: AIR PLUS COM (A7)
Flight Number: A7 0232
Departure Terminal: 1
Class: Economy
Departing: 15:20 Fri 9 Nov 2007
Arriving 16:40 Fri 9 Nov 2007
Arrival Terminal: N
This flight is booked as an ETicket
“Hi ya. Where r u. I miss u.” Julien 10:31am
Julien Lust - 2007.11.05 10:40 "I miss u too bébé! Is ur machinery working today? Lol. I'm thinkin of u so much x"
“No i m bored i ve got nothing to do but wait for the time to go. Where r u now?” Julien 10:47am
Julien Lust - 2007.11.05 10:55 "Doin bits and pieces. Here and there. Missing u and looking at ur pic in my phone. X"
“Ok. Call me quickly before boardin then if u can. I might be sleepin at ur place tonight coz i may have to go early to kings cross tomorrow. Dont worry i wont look anywhere. Lol. I hate madrid i dont wanna go there ever.” Julien 11:00am
Julien Lust - 2007.11.05 14:08 "U've made me very special today with ur dust inside ur eyes... I'm such a minger! I should leave my insecurities on a side and enjoy more of u! Sorry for it! I love u very much Julien and this week will go very fast and we'll be having really good times together. Can't wait! Urs forever, Scottito x"
“Hi ya. I dont see what dust u r talkin bout. That was tears of love. Come back soon for some more adventure. I ll b waiting for u. Bisou” Julien 2:30pm
Julien Lust - 2007.11.05 15:34 "Tears of love? ... For me? Aawww that's so sweet mate! Don't be sad because i'm going, be happy because we'll meet each other very very soon again to enjoy and love! Yeah! Mwack bisous"
Julien Lust - 2007.11.05 15:41 "Arriving to the airport. Je suis triste et je m'ennuie. Et tu sais à quoi je pense? Julien, l'homme de ma vie. Comment as-tu devine? Mais mon petit chou, c'est simple, tu as toujours cet air-là lorsque je pense à l'homme de ma vie aka Julien. Muack"
“Have a bon voyage. Big kiss. Nous sommes soeurs jumelles nees sous le signe des gemeaux.’’ Julien 4:24pm
Julien Lust - 2007.11.05 17:03 "On board. Bébé i love u! Please don't forget me and remember i will always be there with u! You're my bébé! Je t'aime sxx"
“Fly well and safe. I ll b waitin 4u i promise. I got the keys and the card. Goin to the gym and home after to pack a few things and take my computer.” Julien 5:26pm
“Cuando sepas todo de cuando llegas me lo dices y voy a buscarte pues tengo el dia libre.” Mommy 7:42pm
Julien Lust - 2007.11.05 19:55 "Arrived safe and going to the baggage collection now. I miss u like hell, why is it so hard? Hope u find everything right, the keys, the card, the room. Love you my love, sxx"
“Hello spanish boy. I m in my brixton room packing my stuff. Tryin to get rid of few things. Hope u fine. Here is fireworks everywhere.” Julien 8:15pm
“On the bus to ur flat now. I took my laptop with. Hope it will work. I m hungry i m gonna have pesto. Bisou” Julien 9:02pm
Julien Lust - 2007.11.05 21:25 "I'm calling u and u're not available... Why? I miss u"
“Call back i was in the elevator” Julien 9:26pm
This is my flight info:
Flight Information Summary
Airline reference (locator):: 3LRGHH
Passenger: Me
Carbonwise: No
London Gatwick Apt (LGW) To Madrid Barajas Apt (MAD)
Airline: AIR PLUS COM (A7)
Flight Number: A7 0233
Departure Terminal: N
Class: Economy
Departing: 17:40 Mon 5 Nov 2007
Arriving 20:55 Mon 5 Nov 2007
Arrival Terminal: 1
Madrid Barajas Apt (MAD) To London Gatwick Apt (LGW)
Airline: AIR PLUS COM (A7)
Flight Number: A7 0232
Departure Terminal: 1
Class: Economy
Departing: 15:20 Fri 9 Nov 2007
Arriving 16:40 Fri 9 Nov 2007
Arrival Terminal: N
This flight is booked as an ETicket
“Hi ya. Where r u. I miss u.” Julien 10:31am
Julien Lust - 2007.11.05 10:40 "I miss u too bébé! Is ur machinery working today? Lol. I'm thinkin of u so much x"
“No i m bored i ve got nothing to do but wait for the time to go. Where r u now?” Julien 10:47am
Julien Lust - 2007.11.05 10:55 "Doin bits and pieces. Here and there. Missing u and looking at ur pic in my phone. X"
“Ok. Call me quickly before boardin then if u can. I might be sleepin at ur place tonight coz i may have to go early to kings cross tomorrow. Dont worry i wont look anywhere. Lol. I hate madrid i dont wanna go there ever.” Julien 11:00am
Julien Lust - 2007.11.05 14:08 "U've made me very special today with ur dust inside ur eyes... I'm such a minger! I should leave my insecurities on a side and enjoy more of u! Sorry for it! I love u very much Julien and this week will go very fast and we'll be having really good times together. Can't wait! Urs forever, Scottito x"
“Hi ya. I dont see what dust u r talkin bout. That was tears of love. Come back soon for some more adventure. I ll b waiting for u. Bisou” Julien 2:30pm
Julien Lust - 2007.11.05 15:34 "Tears of love? ... For me? Aawww that's so sweet mate! Don't be sad because i'm going, be happy because we'll meet each other very very soon again to enjoy and love! Yeah! Mwack bisous"
Julien Lust - 2007.11.05 15:41 "Arriving to the airport. Je suis triste et je m'ennuie. Et tu sais à quoi je pense? Julien, l'homme de ma vie. Comment as-tu devine? Mais mon petit chou, c'est simple, tu as toujours cet air-là lorsque je pense à l'homme de ma vie aka Julien. Muack"
“Have a bon voyage. Big kiss. Nous sommes soeurs jumelles nees sous le signe des gemeaux.’’ Julien 4:24pm
Julien Lust - 2007.11.05 17:03 "On board. Bébé i love u! Please don't forget me and remember i will always be there with u! You're my bébé! Je t'aime sxx"
“Fly well and safe. I ll b waitin 4u i promise. I got the keys and the card. Goin to the gym and home after to pack a few things and take my computer.” Julien 5:26pm
“Cuando sepas todo de cuando llegas me lo dices y voy a buscarte pues tengo el dia libre.” Mommy 7:42pm
Julien Lust - 2007.11.05 19:55 "Arrived safe and going to the baggage collection now. I miss u like hell, why is it so hard? Hope u find everything right, the keys, the card, the room. Love you my love, sxx"
“Hello spanish boy. I m in my brixton room packing my stuff. Tryin to get rid of few things. Hope u fine. Here is fireworks everywhere.” Julien 8:15pm
“On the bus to ur flat now. I took my laptop with. Hope it will work. I m hungry i m gonna have pesto. Bisou” Julien 9:02pm
Julien Lust - 2007.11.05 21:25 "I'm calling u and u're not available... Why? I miss u"
“Call back i was in the elevator” Julien 9:26pm
Sunday, November 04, 2007
A loverly email
Sebas emailed today again:
Sauna - Sunday, 4 November, 2007 10:09 AM
From: "Sebas" To: Me
"Whore, do you what day is today? it's Sunday, the day your French boyfriend loves going to the sauna.
I hope you will suck lots of cocks together and enjoy seeing how two or three random guys fuck your boyfriend's brain off. He will cum with pleasure.
Of course, I hope it happens the same to you. You both are so cute!
Anyway, I'm going to eat, I need to go to work afterwards.
A kiss from fm"
Sauna - Sunday, 4 November, 2007 10:09 AM
From: "Sebas" To: Me
"Whore, do you what day is today? it's Sunday, the day your French boyfriend loves going to the sauna.
I hope you will suck lots of cocks together and enjoy seeing how two or three random guys fuck your boyfriend's brain off. He will cum with pleasure.
Of course, I hope it happens the same to you. You both are so cute!
Anyway, I'm going to eat, I need to go to work afterwards.
A kiss from fm"
Friday, November 02, 2007
Arguments
Texts
(My sent texts are shown in pink)
November 1, 2007
"Arregle el telefono tengo ganas de verte te quero muso besitos." Mommy 1:22pm My mom is so sweet, I can't wait to see her in a few days!
Julien Lust - 2007.11.01 13:41 "How's been ur day? Still nothing works? U should ask for holidays! Going for lunch. I'll see u later alligator! T'aime Sxx" His computers are not working as the data is being transfered to the new system in St Pancras.
Julien Lust - 2007.11.01 16:49 "Still workin?"
Julien Lust - 2007.11.01 17:16 "Where's my finished work txt? I miss it... U forgot about me." For the last weeks, everytime he finishes work he always text me and let me know but it seems like he is forgetting to do it recently.
“Sorry i didnt have the intention to hurt u. I finished work. Im at the gym already. Bisou” Julien 5:24pm
Julien Lust - 2007.11.01 18:49 "So sweet! Just teasing u bébé! I just like receiving ur txt at the end of ur job so i know when to finish mine. Love you sxx"
Last night, at home we had another huge argument because I told him I had to go to see my mom as I hadn't seen her after her recovery. Of course, Julien got upset and asked me if I just knew about the trip as I already have my plane ticket. I told him my mom called this morning and she booked the tickets. He got mad because when my mom calls and books the ticket, I always have to be available for her and run to see her. "Why don't you tell her you're busy and is not possible now?"
I guess he wants me to take him with me. Sorry, not yet!
I realise that everytime he asks me for something and doesn't like the answer or doesn't have the control of the situation, he just doesn't believe me and gets upset. Then the storm comes over us and for him, it's the end of the relationship. What the hell!! Do couples argue without the need to finish the relationship? or there is no arguments within couples? This guy is an idiot!!
Anyway, Julien said he didn't believe me, that I had it all planned and that was enough for him. He took his stuff and left.
November 2, 2007
Julien Lust - 2007.11.02 00:38 "Julien, if u take that bus, i don't want to see u ever again. That's it! U choose that bus or me. I will always love u but i won't ever know u anymore. I love u Scottx"
“Do u really want me to come back?” Julien 12:57am
Julien Lust - 2007.11.02 00:58 "I do"
Julien Lust - 2007.11.02 01:02 "Where are u? I'm in the street" I got dressed up again and went outside to look for him. Where is he now?
“I m still at the bus stop. Left 2 buses go. I ll b there in 5. Wait down so i dont have to ring”. Julien 02:03am
Julien Lust - 2007.11.02 08:21 "Je t'aime, grugnon! Sxx"
“Me too silly. Las castagnetas. Ole. Bisou” Julien 09:55am
Julien Lust - 2007.11.02 10:02 "Castañuelas ha ha ha hi hi! Lol don't know what u're doing to me but i can't live without u! Tres mignon! I love you Julien"
“Has llamado a debo?” Sara, Tami & Javi 10:11am Today it's my cousin's Debora's birthday so her sister is reminding me to call her. I know girl, I know!
“Morning scott, dean didnt go to the flat last night did he?” Rob Flatmate 10:53am “Not really. Im getting continuous calls and texts and threats. Trying to ignore it but its getting to me! You ok?” Rob Flatmate 11:27am I think Rob is very scared about what Dean can really do to him. Rob is thinking about going to Australia and also wants to move out of this flat. That's really sad. How Dean can be so crazy to do that?
‘’Bisous bebe bisous. Je m'ennuie mais je ne suis pas triste. Its almost ur 3 hours luncheon break lol.” Julien 12:19am
“Im nearly finished. What time r u gonna b off?” Julien 4:15pm
“Hi babe, forgot to text you back. I was at fire then trade but i did not see you either. Had great fun. Any plans for the weekend? X” Jenny Fire 4:47pm
Julien Lust - 2007.11.02 16:52 "Finish now babe! Where's my txt? Can't wait to see u! Sxx"
“I sent it ten minutes before leavin. See u here” Julien 5:14pm
Jenny Fire - 2007.11.02 17:20 "Hey Jenny, everybody says Trade was amazing. I miss it coz Julien collapsed. Crap! Tonite going to profile for club nation live... No clue! And nothing else planned. And u?"
“Just sitting on a plane with my man waiting to go to barcelona x” Jenny Fire 5:38pm
“Hi scott - i just finished the meetings & got ur email. tks 4 all ur work on the jds. I will check the lib promotions & upload them. Tks 4 all ur help! Ang” Angela Green HR 6:06pm I love my job at Lambeth. So interesting, so good. Virginia is teaching me everything and they appreciate my input. Hopefully I'll become a great Human Resources officer soon!!
The hunk du jour
Yeah it's me!! I love my photos xx
(My sent texts are shown in pink)
November 1, 2007
"Arregle el telefono tengo ganas de verte te quero muso besitos." Mommy 1:22pm My mom is so sweet, I can't wait to see her in a few days!
Julien Lust - 2007.11.01 13:41 "How's been ur day? Still nothing works? U should ask for holidays! Going for lunch. I'll see u later alligator! T'aime Sxx" His computers are not working as the data is being transfered to the new system in St Pancras.
Julien Lust - 2007.11.01 16:49 "Still workin?"
Julien Lust - 2007.11.01 17:16 "Where's my finished work txt? I miss it... U forgot about me." For the last weeks, everytime he finishes work he always text me and let me know but it seems like he is forgetting to do it recently.
“Sorry i didnt have the intention to hurt u. I finished work. Im at the gym already. Bisou” Julien 5:24pm
Julien Lust - 2007.11.01 18:49 "So sweet! Just teasing u bébé! I just like receiving ur txt at the end of ur job so i know when to finish mine. Love you sxx"
Last night, at home we had another huge argument because I told him I had to go to see my mom as I hadn't seen her after her recovery. Of course, Julien got upset and asked me if I just knew about the trip as I already have my plane ticket. I told him my mom called this morning and she booked the tickets. He got mad because when my mom calls and books the ticket, I always have to be available for her and run to see her. "Why don't you tell her you're busy and is not possible now?"
I guess he wants me to take him with me. Sorry, not yet!
I realise that everytime he asks me for something and doesn't like the answer or doesn't have the control of the situation, he just doesn't believe me and gets upset. Then the storm comes over us and for him, it's the end of the relationship. What the hell!! Do couples argue without the need to finish the relationship? or there is no arguments within couples? This guy is an idiot!!
Anyway, Julien said he didn't believe me, that I had it all planned and that was enough for him. He took his stuff and left.
November 2, 2007
Julien Lust - 2007.11.02 00:38 "Julien, if u take that bus, i don't want to see u ever again. That's it! U choose that bus or me. I will always love u but i won't ever know u anymore. I love u Scottx"
“Do u really want me to come back?” Julien 12:57am
Julien Lust - 2007.11.02 00:58 "I do"
Julien Lust - 2007.11.02 01:02 "Where are u? I'm in the street" I got dressed up again and went outside to look for him. Where is he now?
“I m still at the bus stop. Left 2 buses go. I ll b there in 5. Wait down so i dont have to ring”. Julien 02:03am
Julien Lust - 2007.11.02 08:21 "Je t'aime, grugnon! Sxx"
“Me too silly. Las castagnetas. Ole. Bisou” Julien 09:55am
Julien Lust - 2007.11.02 10:02 "Castañuelas ha ha ha hi hi! Lol don't know what u're doing to me but i can't live without u! Tres mignon! I love you Julien"
“Has llamado a debo?” Sara, Tami & Javi 10:11am Today it's my cousin's Debora's birthday so her sister is reminding me to call her. I know girl, I know!
“Morning scott, dean didnt go to the flat last night did he?” Rob Flatmate 10:53am “Not really. Im getting continuous calls and texts and threats. Trying to ignore it but its getting to me! You ok?” Rob Flatmate 11:27am I think Rob is very scared about what Dean can really do to him. Rob is thinking about going to Australia and also wants to move out of this flat. That's really sad. How Dean can be so crazy to do that?
‘’Bisous bebe bisous. Je m'ennuie mais je ne suis pas triste. Its almost ur 3 hours luncheon break lol.” Julien 12:19am
“Im nearly finished. What time r u gonna b off?” Julien 4:15pm
“Hi babe, forgot to text you back. I was at fire then trade but i did not see you either. Had great fun. Any plans for the weekend? X” Jenny Fire 4:47pm
Julien Lust - 2007.11.02 16:52 "Finish now babe! Where's my txt? Can't wait to see u! Sxx"
“I sent it ten minutes before leavin. See u here” Julien 5:14pm
Jenny Fire - 2007.11.02 17:20 "Hey Jenny, everybody says Trade was amazing. I miss it coz Julien collapsed. Crap! Tonite going to profile for club nation live... No clue! And nothing else planned. And u?"
“Just sitting on a plane with my man waiting to go to barcelona x” Jenny Fire 5:38pm
“Hi scott - i just finished the meetings & got ur email. tks 4 all ur work on the jds. I will check the lib promotions & upload them. Tks 4 all ur help! Ang” Angela Green HR 6:06pm I love my job at Lambeth. So interesting, so good. Virginia is teaching me everything and they appreciate my input. Hopefully I'll become a great Human Resources officer soon!!
The hunk du jour
Yeah it's me!! I love my photos xx
Thursday, November 01, 2007
Sebas words
Today I received another email from my 'sis' Sebas. She is so funny!!
Dear doll - Thursday, 1 November, 2007 1:13 PM
From: "Sebas" To: Me
"Hello bitch among bitchs, how is your super slut husband? are you already a widower or you still go from one sauna to another and from party to party fucking everybody? you really are two of a kind, made for each other, such whores!!!
I'm at home, it's bank holiday and I don't have any plans, shame! to tell the truth, I'm really tired and don't feel like going out anywhere. If I could, I would go back to bed... I just got up... I don't get it - I didn't go out last night and have slept lots. I think I'm getting sick, I don't feel like going to Odarko or any of those cruising places and today it's my day off. I have also been on MSN with a guy from Mostoles who wants me to go to his place; he is hot but I just don't feel it... it's been long time since I had sex (since ........ last Monday, I think, at the sex shop with a daddy, a married man that works with me at the Hotel. I came to the sex shop and there he was!!!, wow!! we were in shock both of us!!. It was cool, very kinky.
Our sister Michelle continues convalescent after her operation. He says they put a 25cm camera inside his asshole... I'm sure that she got a hard on, she is so passive!! and she did cum right there!!!!!!
Wow! I cannot even write, my hands are tired but why? I wanted to go back to the saunas, I have forgotten what they are like. Ah well, I will have to wait another day to see if I feel like it.
Babe, let's see when you update your blog as I have read "my true french love" twenty thousand times (by the way, he has the cock out in Fire, what a nerve!!!). Both of you under drug influence and horny.
Anyway, I don't feel like writing anymore. Can you see how tired I am? Let's see if I cheer up and go for a walk, or I do something in my day off (I work every weekend, even Sundays at the lamp shop... I know I am a very poor girl!!. I want to buy a car and need to earn money for that. I've been looking for cars in different car dealers but I don't see anything interesting, but one day I will buy one and you'll see.... cruising every single day!!!.
So biotch, you go girl, carry on and don't change, don't try to be a Madonna impersonator!!!"
Dear doll - Thursday, 1 November, 2007 1:13 PM
From: "Sebas" To: Me
"Hello bitch among bitchs, how is your super slut husband? are you already a widower or you still go from one sauna to another and from party to party fucking everybody? you really are two of a kind, made for each other, such whores!!!
I'm at home, it's bank holiday and I don't have any plans, shame! to tell the truth, I'm really tired and don't feel like going out anywhere. If I could, I would go back to bed... I just got up... I don't get it - I didn't go out last night and have slept lots. I think I'm getting sick, I don't feel like going to Odarko or any of those cruising places and today it's my day off. I have also been on MSN with a guy from Mostoles who wants me to go to his place; he is hot but I just don't feel it... it's been long time since I had sex (since ........ last Monday, I think, at the sex shop with a daddy, a married man that works with me at the Hotel. I came to the sex shop and there he was!!!, wow!! we were in shock both of us!!. It was cool, very kinky.
Our sister Michelle continues convalescent after her operation. He says they put a 25cm camera inside his asshole... I'm sure that she got a hard on, she is so passive!! and she did cum right there!!!!!!
Wow! I cannot even write, my hands are tired but why? I wanted to go back to the saunas, I have forgotten what they are like. Ah well, I will have to wait another day to see if I feel like it.
Babe, let's see when you update your blog as I have read "my true french love" twenty thousand times (by the way, he has the cock out in Fire, what a nerve!!!). Both of you under drug influence and horny.
Anyway, I don't feel like writing anymore. Can you see how tired I am? Let's see if I cheer up and go for a walk, or I do something in my day off (I work every weekend, even Sundays at the lamp shop... I know I am a very poor girl!!. I want to buy a car and need to earn money for that. I've been looking for cars in different car dealers but I don't see anything interesting, but one day I will buy one and you'll see.... cruising every single day!!!.
So biotch, you go girl, carry on and don't change, don't try to be a Madonna impersonator!!!"
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Latest news
The last days, Julien has become really involved with me, with lots of love, touching me here and there, I can't really keep his hands off my dick!!
I have here texts from these past days: (my sent texts are in pink)
October 29, 2007
‘’Bisous bebe je t m. Mouak’’ Julien 11:41am
Julien Lust - 2007.10.29 11:59 "What was that? A random thought? You're adorable. Bisous mwack x"
“I miss u already. Cant wait for the gym to c u. Kisses.” Julien 12:01pm
“On my way to the gym. C u there. Bisou” Julien 4:36pm
As I said, he is allover me. Could this mean that he is changing and is gonna try this love to work? Fingers crossed!
Rob Flatmate - 2007.10.29 12:26 "Hey Rob, are u ok? How did it go? I got some info. Call 08088010327 there's a guy called Simon he deals with gay domestic violence. There's a site galop.org.uk that helps a lot too its no is 02077042040 and lgbt lambeth police is 02086492099. Please report it, don't want anything wrong to happen to u. Let me know if u need summit. Sxx"
“Im ok. Thanks for text. Havent reported it yet. Might just try the talk tactic. See you indoors x” Rob Flatmate 17:15pm He will get hit again, I care about him.
Bruce - 2007.10.29 17:01 "Hi Bruce, how're ya? It was nice to see u last Sat. How was Trade? Did u enjoy? People say it was really good. Let's meet soon for a quick or a meal... Love, Sxx"
“Trade was excellent. One of the best nites in ages. My only problem was that it had been so long since i'd been in turnmills, i kept getting lost. And i must have taken 10 minutes to find my way out! Mind u, i had been partying for 11 hrs by then! I actually walked back to victoria to sober up! Yes lets catch up soon. I'll call with some dates soon. Bx.” Bruce 6:09pm
Bruce was my first boyfriend when I arrived to Brighton and we still keep in touch. I really love him lots. He is one of the nicest men I have ever met!
Emma Dj Misswhite - 2007.10.29 17:03 "Hey Emma, it was great to see u last Sat. I can't wait to see u djing again... When i'm dressed up like u in ur bday! Wow gonna be mad! Big kiss sxx"
“Hey babe. Great to see you too. Very excited about the 11Th - seeing everyone dressed up as me - gonna be so funny! XXX” Dj MissWhite Emma 6:17pm
Jenny Fire - 2007.10.29 17:06 "Hey Jenny, where were u last Sat?!! I looked for ya everywhere... I had a great time! How was Trade? I was about to go but my boy collapsed so na nah! Let's meet soon, big kiss sxx"
October 30, 2009
“Hi ya. Hope u have taken the turkey this mornin as i forgot it. All is so boring here. Bisous think of u.” Julien 12:23pm
Julien Lust - 2007.10.30 13:16 "I did of course. Thank uuu! Miamm so good! Delicious turkey! Day is ok here, the views are amazing with the sun shining over the rainbow so high... Love ya bunches sxx"
“I m fallin asleep here. Almost the end of my torture. See ya at the gym. Bisous” Julien 3:50pm
Today October 31, 2009
Rob Flatmate - 2007.10.31 03:45 "Rob, Dean is banging the door and shouting u gave him aids. And neighbors are calling the police. Aw my god! He says u told him to come here and sleep in ur bed. Ian is so upset, i just woke up. We don't know what to do. X"
‘’Il n y a pas il n y a pas il n y a pas. Sitting down on my chair so is my life at the moment. Waiting for the time to b with u again and again and again. Bisous” Julien 3:19pm Julien and I are starting to create this fake French that according to him it doesn't make sense in French but we do understand each other... 'Il n y a pas'.
“I m off. Goin to the gym. Youpi.” Julien 4:15pm
Julien Lust - 2007.10.31 18:03 "Aw my god! Can't believe i just finish work! So late. I'll get to the gym just to pick u up and that's it. Well, what can we do? X"
I have here texts from these past days: (my sent texts are in pink)
October 29, 2007
‘’Bisous bebe je t m. Mouak’’ Julien 11:41am
Julien Lust - 2007.10.29 11:59 "What was that? A random thought? You're adorable. Bisous mwack x"
“I miss u already. Cant wait for the gym to c u. Kisses.” Julien 12:01pm
“On my way to the gym. C u there. Bisou” Julien 4:36pm
As I said, he is allover me. Could this mean that he is changing and is gonna try this love to work? Fingers crossed!
Rob Flatmate - 2007.10.29 12:26 "Hey Rob, are u ok? How did it go? I got some info. Call 08088010327 there's a guy called Simon he deals with gay domestic violence. There's a site galop.org.uk that helps a lot too its no is 02077042040 and lgbt lambeth police is 02086492099. Please report it, don't want anything wrong to happen to u. Let me know if u need summit. Sxx"
“Im ok. Thanks for text. Havent reported it yet. Might just try the talk tactic. See you indoors x” Rob Flatmate 17:15pm He will get hit again, I care about him.
Bruce - 2007.10.29 17:01 "Hi Bruce, how're ya? It was nice to see u last Sat. How was Trade? Did u enjoy? People say it was really good. Let's meet soon for a quick or a meal... Love, Sxx"
“Trade was excellent. One of the best nites in ages. My only problem was that it had been so long since i'd been in turnmills, i kept getting lost. And i must have taken 10 minutes to find my way out! Mind u, i had been partying for 11 hrs by then! I actually walked back to victoria to sober up! Yes lets catch up soon. I'll call with some dates soon. Bx.” Bruce 6:09pm
Bruce was my first boyfriend when I arrived to Brighton and we still keep in touch. I really love him lots. He is one of the nicest men I have ever met!
Emma Dj Misswhite - 2007.10.29 17:03 "Hey Emma, it was great to see u last Sat. I can't wait to see u djing again... When i'm dressed up like u in ur bday! Wow gonna be mad! Big kiss sxx"
“Hey babe. Great to see you too. Very excited about the 11Th - seeing everyone dressed up as me - gonna be so funny! XXX” Dj MissWhite Emma 6:17pm
Jenny Fire - 2007.10.29 17:06 "Hey Jenny, where were u last Sat?!! I looked for ya everywhere... I had a great time! How was Trade? I was about to go but my boy collapsed so na nah! Let's meet soon, big kiss sxx"
October 30, 2009
“Hi ya. Hope u have taken the turkey this mornin as i forgot it. All is so boring here. Bisous think of u.” Julien 12:23pm
Julien Lust - 2007.10.30 13:16 "I did of course. Thank uuu! Miamm so good! Delicious turkey! Day is ok here, the views are amazing with the sun shining over the rainbow so high... Love ya bunches sxx"
“I m fallin asleep here. Almost the end of my torture. See ya at the gym. Bisous” Julien 3:50pm
Today October 31, 2009
Rob Flatmate - 2007.10.31 03:45 "Rob, Dean is banging the door and shouting u gave him aids. And neighbors are calling the police. Aw my god! He says u told him to come here and sleep in ur bed. Ian is so upset, i just woke up. We don't know what to do. X"
‘’Il n y a pas il n y a pas il n y a pas. Sitting down on my chair so is my life at the moment. Waiting for the time to b with u again and again and again. Bisous” Julien 3:19pm Julien and I are starting to create this fake French that according to him it doesn't make sense in French but we do understand each other... 'Il n y a pas'.
“I m off. Goin to the gym. Youpi.” Julien 4:15pm
Julien Lust - 2007.10.31 18:03 "Aw my god! Can't believe i just finish work! So late. I'll get to the gym just to pick u up and that's it. Well, what can we do? X"
Dean scandal
This morning, like at 3am, Julien woke me up as he heard noises at the door. I listened and it was Ian trying to talk to someone, he sounded really stressed out.
The other person was Dean, Rob's boyfriend who sounded totally drunk and out of his senses. He was shouting that Rob gave him Aids and this was horrible. He wanted to sleep in Rob's bed as Rob told him so and was demanding Ian to let him in.
Ian was excusing himself and denying entry as Rob never told him that Dean was coming to sleep there.
A few days ago, Rob arrived home claiming Dean had beaten him up and all his friends, we recommended him to report him to the police as Dean has a history of violence. Aw my god!!
He kept on kicking the door and shouting. Neighbours were shouting "shut up" but that didn't stop him. He carried on like that for 1 hour and after Ian called the police and they visited the building, he came back a few more times. Incredible!!
Poor Rob, what's gonna happen now? and where is he?
The other person was Dean, Rob's boyfriend who sounded totally drunk and out of his senses. He was shouting that Rob gave him Aids and this was horrible. He wanted to sleep in Rob's bed as Rob told him so and was demanding Ian to let him in.
Ian was excusing himself and denying entry as Rob never told him that Dean was coming to sleep there.
A few days ago, Rob arrived home claiming Dean had beaten him up and all his friends, we recommended him to report him to the police as Dean has a history of violence. Aw my god!!
He kept on kicking the door and shouting. Neighbours were shouting "shut up" but that didn't stop him. He carried on like that for 1 hour and after Ian called the police and they visited the building, he came back a few more times. Incredible!!
Poor Rob, what's gonna happen now? and where is he?
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Julien Dancing
Last night, before we went to Gem's birthday, we danced a bit at home getting ready to go. So I recorded a video of Julien. Check it out here:
but he has this don't-know-what that really makes me fall for him. Isn't he cute!!
Anyway, tonight we got ready to go to Horizon in Fire where there was the Halloween party. As ever Julien didn't want to go out, so I had to convince him. He didn't have anything to put on so we did a bit of fashion catwalk until he felt comfortable with what he wore at the end. I took some photos:
The party was super busy and to sum up, we had a great time. Julien respected me and everything went sweet. If you want to see all the photos, click on this link.
It's been 5 hours now!!
This morning we woke up at 11am and Julien went to Brixton to get his mail, check his emails, pack more clothes... little by little this guy is moving in, lol. I like this though, I love being with him.
Just a few texts received:
October 26, 2007
“Hi ya. Day is finished for me. Was boring. I m in kings cross. Gonna catch the bus and go to the gym i guess. Thank u for the lovely text. Love u too.” Julien 3:07pm
Today October 27, 2007
“Ring ring ring... Call me? X” George 16 6:07pm Wow!! This is a surprise, it's been ages George and I don't talk. I'll give him a call later.
I got here some of the texts I have sent to people in the last days:
Julien Lust - 2007.10.16 10:24 "Really? Ah ok. See u down here then. X"
Julien Lust - 2007.10.16 12:45 "Where?"
Ben Seb Gang - 2007.10.18 09:12 "Hey Ben, hope u're ok. Don't stress about our chat man. I know one day we'll have it and it'll be cool. One day when u're not busy, or have anybody to meet or u just feel alone at home, just give me a call and we'll talk. Hope everything went ok with the moving, who's steve? Big kiss sxx"
Michel Wild Fruit - 2007.10.18 09:16 "Hi Michel, how's things? Sebastian is a guy who's been facebooking me and looks really hot. I saw we had a friend in common: Sean and i thought u would know him. Sean explained to me he never met him actually, they were just gaydaring each other. How u're doing? Missing u sexy, sxx"
Julien Lust - 2007.10.18 16:31 "Bébé what u doing? X"
Julien Lust - 2007.10.18 16:38 "I'm outside of ur office. Waitin"
Angeline - 2007.10.18 22:13 "Hi sweetheart, are we meeting tomorrow at the end? Aw i wanna see ya and party together! Let me know babe sxx"
Julien Lust - 2007.10.19 16:26 "7pm"
Julien Lust - 2007.10.19 16:31 "Ten hours? That's almost a whole day!! You can even read 10 books in the library"!!" Library is how we nickname the sauna.
Julien Lust - 2007.10.19 16:38 "Soon. At 5 i guess, so what're u doing? X"
Megan Jones Fire - 2007.10.20 23:42 "Happy birthday to u! Happy birthday to u! Happy birthday dear Megan and Steve! Happy birthday to u guys! Wow! Hope u're having an amazing time guys, i really wanted to have been there but just woke up from a whole long nite of debauchery, hungover and rape! Big kisses to u both and hope to see u pretty soon! Aw my god reallondon/time out sxx"
Karl Pearce - 2007.10.21 14:38 "Hi Karl, sorry i haven't been much in touch. I'm a calamity! I'm going thru some issues. We'll talk soon and i'll explain. Big kiss and remember i think of u and miss ya. Big kiss sxx"
Joel Fire - 2007.10.21 15:18 "Happy 1st anniversary that we met each other! Hope u're ok! It's been 1 year already wow! Take care and don't be a stranger! Big kiss love sxx" He never replied back.
Angeline - 2007.10.23 23:04 "Hi Angeline, how r u? Thank u so much for the party last friday. Really nice to see u! I got too wasted and something went really wrong with Julien. I'm very low and depressed. We can talk someday. Big kiss sxx"
Jenny Fire - 2007.10.24 13:56 "Aw my god! I missed u then! Where were u? You need to get in front of me next time and shout on my face ha ha ha lol. Are u out this next wknd? Can't wait! How come u lost ur phone? Big kiss sxx"
Julien Lust - 2007.10.24 13:57 "Just finished my meetings. Aw my god so boring! Missing u Pascualito x"
Julien Lust - 2007.10.25 16:54 "On my way"
Gem Steve Kennington - 2007.10.26 09:09 "Happy birthday Gem! How're u? Ready for a weekend of debauchery and extravaganza? Wow! Hope u have a great day and glad to spend it with u tonite at Shadow Lounge!! Can't wait! Big kiss sx"
Julien Lust - 2007.10.26 11:08 "Fire alarm on. All out on the river shore. Ugly day but i'm thinking of u so much. U made my day yesterday with the card! U're the sweetest guy! I'm so proud to be loved by u and be ur baby! Miamm sxx"
And today:
I called Julien as he went to Brixton at 11am and it's already 3.30pm. I said I was leaving home and he could contact me later on wherever I may be. He got a bit upset and I text him back:
Julien Lust - 2007.10.27 15:30 "Babe i was kidding! If u need more time, don't stress ok. Take ur time and do what u need to do. Love ya Sxx"
Everytime he goes to his place he takes ages, what exactly is doing? He always says he checks his emails, plucks his hairy back and don't know what else, but the point here is that he takes bloody ages. It's been almost 5 hours now!!!
Just a few texts received:
October 26, 2007
“Hi ya. Day is finished for me. Was boring. I m in kings cross. Gonna catch the bus and go to the gym i guess. Thank u for the lovely text. Love u too.” Julien 3:07pm
Today October 27, 2007
“Ring ring ring... Call me? X” George 16 6:07pm Wow!! This is a surprise, it's been ages George and I don't talk. I'll give him a call later.
I got here some of the texts I have sent to people in the last days:
Julien Lust - 2007.10.16 10:24 "Really? Ah ok. See u down here then. X"
Julien Lust - 2007.10.16 12:45 "Where?"
Ben Seb Gang - 2007.10.18 09:12 "Hey Ben, hope u're ok. Don't stress about our chat man. I know one day we'll have it and it'll be cool. One day when u're not busy, or have anybody to meet or u just feel alone at home, just give me a call and we'll talk. Hope everything went ok with the moving, who's steve? Big kiss sxx"
Michel Wild Fruit - 2007.10.18 09:16 "Hi Michel, how's things? Sebastian is a guy who's been facebooking me and looks really hot. I saw we had a friend in common: Sean and i thought u would know him. Sean explained to me he never met him actually, they were just gaydaring each other. How u're doing? Missing u sexy, sxx"
Julien Lust - 2007.10.18 16:31 "Bébé what u doing? X"
Julien Lust - 2007.10.18 16:38 "I'm outside of ur office. Waitin"
Angeline - 2007.10.18 22:13 "Hi sweetheart, are we meeting tomorrow at the end? Aw i wanna see ya and party together! Let me know babe sxx"
Julien Lust - 2007.10.19 16:26 "7pm"
Julien Lust - 2007.10.19 16:31 "Ten hours? That's almost a whole day!! You can even read 10 books in the library"!!" Library is how we nickname the sauna.
Julien Lust - 2007.10.19 16:38 "Soon. At 5 i guess, so what're u doing? X"
Megan Jones Fire - 2007.10.20 23:42 "Happy birthday to u! Happy birthday to u! Happy birthday dear Megan and Steve! Happy birthday to u guys! Wow! Hope u're having an amazing time guys, i really wanted to have been there but just woke up from a whole long nite of debauchery, hungover and rape! Big kisses to u both and hope to see u pretty soon! Aw my god reallondon/time out sxx"
Karl Pearce - 2007.10.21 14:38 "Hi Karl, sorry i haven't been much in touch. I'm a calamity! I'm going thru some issues. We'll talk soon and i'll explain. Big kiss and remember i think of u and miss ya. Big kiss sxx"
Joel Fire - 2007.10.21 15:18 "Happy 1st anniversary that we met each other! Hope u're ok! It's been 1 year already wow! Take care and don't be a stranger! Big kiss love sxx" He never replied back.
Angeline - 2007.10.23 23:04 "Hi Angeline, how r u? Thank u so much for the party last friday. Really nice to see u! I got too wasted and something went really wrong with Julien. I'm very low and depressed. We can talk someday. Big kiss sxx"
Jenny Fire - 2007.10.24 13:56 "Aw my god! I missed u then! Where were u? You need to get in front of me next time and shout on my face ha ha ha lol. Are u out this next wknd? Can't wait! How come u lost ur phone? Big kiss sxx"
Julien Lust - 2007.10.24 13:57 "Just finished my meetings. Aw my god so boring! Missing u Pascualito x"
Julien Lust - 2007.10.25 16:54 "On my way"
Gem Steve Kennington - 2007.10.26 09:09 "Happy birthday Gem! How're u? Ready for a weekend of debauchery and extravaganza? Wow! Hope u have a great day and glad to spend it with u tonite at Shadow Lounge!! Can't wait! Big kiss sx"
Julien Lust - 2007.10.26 11:08 "Fire alarm on. All out on the river shore. Ugly day but i'm thinking of u so much. U made my day yesterday with the card! U're the sweetest guy! I'm so proud to be loved by u and be ur baby! Miamm sxx"
And today:
I called Julien as he went to Brixton at 11am and it's already 3.30pm. I said I was leaving home and he could contact me later on wherever I may be. He got a bit upset and I text him back:
Julien Lust - 2007.10.27 15:30 "Babe i was kidding! If u need more time, don't stress ok. Take ur time and do what u need to do. Love ya Sxx"
Everytime he goes to his place he takes ages, what exactly is doing? He always says he checks his emails, plucks his hairy back and don't know what else, but the point here is that he takes bloody ages. It's been almost 5 hours now!!!
Friday, October 26, 2007
Gem's birthday
In the morning, Julien was going to St Pancras to see the new Eurostar facilities as the moving is coming soon. He finished work at 3pm and went to the gym directly.
I decided to end work at 4.25pm and took the bike to go to the gym. I joined Julien but we couldn't take a shower as there was some problem with the water that was cold so we decided to take a shower later on at home.
We finished at 6pm and I suggested to go the movies and see 'The Counterfeiters' but he claimed he was tired. We looked for a birthday card for Gem and then we went back home despite I was upset as I wanna see the movie.
At home, we ate something and saw Rob who told us that Dean had dumped him. He explained he text him last night and said that they couldn't be together anymore and he set himself as single in Facebook.
Then Julien laid down on the bed and fell asleep for a couple of hours. In the meanwhile, I did some photo uploading for Reallondon.com.
He woke up and we got ready to go out to go to Shadow Lounge for Gem's birthday. I also wanted Julien to see it as he had never been there. Gem said she had guestlisted us and when we arrived there at 11.45pm, they were outside having a cig.
We said hello and gave her the birthday card. When we tried to get in, Gem and company went downstairs and we were told to pay £10 each.
I asked "what?". I am never going to pay in a London club if I have to work, who do they think they are?. I got my press pass out and explained to them I was a journalist from Time Out and was there to work, snapping the event. For fuck shake, that's my job! The security girl, Jacqui said the PR agency didn't tell them anything about me coming tonight. I also spoke with John, the guestlist guy who said I wasn't on the list, "sorry, I am afraid you're not on the list!!" I hate that word "I'm afraid..."!!
They contacted the manager and I explained the problem. He then contacted the general manager, Richard who said he didn't have any news about me coming tonight. They are all really posh gay trendy bitches!!
Finally this guy rang Guy Monkhouse, the PR and I spoke with him on the phone - he didn't remember me.
I told him we had email each other before and he said he couldn't rememeber me. I said "you know Sam Milford...!" but he denied it. I claimed I was there to recommend the place and Gem asked me to take pics but they didn't want me to take pics due to celebrities. They finally granted me the entrance without taking photos.
The place was totally packed and we couldn't even move. Beautiful guys though and some smiled and even touched me. Julien was getting mad and bored so he asked me to go.
After being trying to get in for 30 mins, we stood there for 20 minutes and left. Crap!!
We took the bus and went back home. Julien complained about the place: horrible, bad music, ugly people, no celebritites, too packed, we couldn't move and most of them were drunk.
Whatever!!
I decided to end work at 4.25pm and took the bike to go to the gym. I joined Julien but we couldn't take a shower as there was some problem with the water that was cold so we decided to take a shower later on at home.
We finished at 6pm and I suggested to go the movies and see 'The Counterfeiters' but he claimed he was tired. We looked for a birthday card for Gem and then we went back home despite I was upset as I wanna see the movie.
At home, we ate something and saw Rob who told us that Dean had dumped him. He explained he text him last night and said that they couldn't be together anymore and he set himself as single in Facebook.
Then Julien laid down on the bed and fell asleep for a couple of hours. In the meanwhile, I did some photo uploading for Reallondon.com.
He woke up and we got ready to go out to go to Shadow Lounge for Gem's birthday. I also wanted Julien to see it as he had never been there. Gem said she had guestlisted us and when we arrived there at 11.45pm, they were outside having a cig.
We said hello and gave her the birthday card. When we tried to get in, Gem and company went downstairs and we were told to pay £10 each.
I asked "what?". I am never going to pay in a London club if I have to work, who do they think they are?. I got my press pass out and explained to them I was a journalist from Time Out and was there to work, snapping the event. For fuck shake, that's my job! The security girl, Jacqui said the PR agency didn't tell them anything about me coming tonight. I also spoke with John, the guestlist guy who said I wasn't on the list, "sorry, I am afraid you're not on the list!!" I hate that word "I'm afraid..."!!
They contacted the manager and I explained the problem. He then contacted the general manager, Richard who said he didn't have any news about me coming tonight. They are all really posh gay trendy bitches!!
Finally this guy rang Guy Monkhouse, the PR and I spoke with him on the phone - he didn't remember me.
I told him we had email each other before and he said he couldn't rememeber me. I said "you know Sam Milford...!" but he denied it. I claimed I was there to recommend the place and Gem asked me to take pics but they didn't want me to take pics due to celebrities. They finally granted me the entrance without taking photos.
The place was totally packed and we couldn't even move. Beautiful guys though and some smiled and even touched me. Julien was getting mad and bored so he asked me to go.
After being trying to get in for 30 mins, we stood there for 20 minutes and left. Crap!!
We took the bus and went back home. Julien complained about the place: horrible, bad music, ugly people, no celebritites, too packed, we couldn't move and most of them were drunk.
Whatever!!
Thursday, October 25, 2007
I love you ID pass
I even realized that when I get low because of this, he just don't look at other guys or say "Ça va lulu!", he is just stays with me trying to cheer me up.
This afternoon, while walking towards the gym, I was speaking with my 'sis' Miguel who has been operated of a flat condyloma yesterday. He advised me to dump Frenchy if he continues this way as it is not worthy. What would I do without my sister? lol.
Anyway, when I got in the gym, he was already training but he came down with me to the changing room. He then opened his locker and handed me something: it was a Eurostar ID pass with my photo and instead of a name saying 'I love you baby' and instead of a code he put a '8=D - Q' which meant a penis going to his butt ('Cul' in French), isn't that sweet!!
I felt really loved so I hugged him and kissed in the changing room, some people looked at us. It was a special moment!
We then trained and had a laugh.
The other day, we went to McDonalds and as it was the first time going there together, I took a nice pic. Look:
This afternoon, while walking towards the gym, I was speaking with my 'sis' Miguel who has been operated of a flat condyloma yesterday. He advised me to dump Frenchy if he continues this way as it is not worthy. What would I do without my sister? lol.
Anyway, when I got in the gym, he was already training but he came down with me to the changing room. He then opened his locker and handed me something: it was a Eurostar ID pass with my photo and instead of a name saying 'I love you baby' and instead of a code he put a '8=D - Q' which meant a penis going to his butt ('Cul' in French), isn't that sweet!!
I felt really loved so I hugged him and kissed in the changing room, some people looked at us. It was a special moment!
We then trained and had a laugh.
The other day, we went to McDonalds and as it was the first time going there together, I took a nice pic. Look:
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Disappointment
I woke up and didn't even look at him. I just went to the loo.
When I came back to the room, I took the towel and he said "Babe if you want, after the gym I'll go to Brixton".
"What?" I made him repeat it. Then I replied I was very disappointed.
I said "we cannot talk about anything because you just close yourself, no opinion, no decision, you say nothing! You could have even lied to me and say you won't do it anymore because you love me but instead you decided to keep your mouth shut. Is that what I am expecting from you? is that what I am getting? A shut mouth?"
He looked at me and said he loved me. He stated he said all that to me already and thought I forgot all about it because he promised he wouldn't it anymore.
He grabbed me, said "je t'aime" and then hugged me.
I said I was disappointed because I would like to be able to speak about anything with him and get responses. He replied he answered to me and I described everything I did yesterday with the PC and how I waited for him.
He hugged me again.
I am fed up of this, he hugs me and thinks all is sorted. Whatever!
Then he said he wanted to live with me but if I wanted him to go, he would go. I said I didn't want him to and got ready to go to work.
At night he spent the whole time with me, hugging me and saying he loved me.
On October 23, 2007
“Just finished. One more awful day without printer. Goin to gym. What time shall i b expecting ur arrival? Big kiss” Julien 4:38pm
Today October 24, 2007
“Good morning mr fierce! I just saw you cycle past me in kennington but you were too lost in music to see me waving frantically at you. Xxxx” Jenny Fire 09:40am
Jenny, she is so cool!!
“Lunch? Love u. Very busy now. Kiss” Julien 3:04pm
“I m just leavin work right now. Where r u.” Julien 5:05pm
“Hey honey bun, it was lovely seeing you on Friday. Are you ok, what happened you and Julian seemed so happy, ah sweetie you will sort it out. Xxx” Angeline 8:56pm
When I came back to the room, I took the towel and he said "Babe if you want, after the gym I'll go to Brixton".
"What?" I made him repeat it. Then I replied I was very disappointed.
I said "we cannot talk about anything because you just close yourself, no opinion, no decision, you say nothing! You could have even lied to me and say you won't do it anymore because you love me but instead you decided to keep your mouth shut. Is that what I am expecting from you? is that what I am getting? A shut mouth?"
He looked at me and said he loved me. He stated he said all that to me already and thought I forgot all about it because he promised he wouldn't it anymore.
He grabbed me, said "je t'aime" and then hugged me.
I said I was disappointed because I would like to be able to speak about anything with him and get responses. He replied he answered to me and I described everything I did yesterday with the PC and how I waited for him.
He hugged me again.
I am fed up of this, he hugs me and thinks all is sorted. Whatever!
Then he said he wanted to live with me but if I wanted him to go, he would go. I said I didn't want him to and got ready to go to work.
At night he spent the whole time with me, hugging me and saying he loved me.
On October 23, 2007
“Just finished. One more awful day without printer. Goin to gym. What time shall i b expecting ur arrival? Big kiss” Julien 4:38pm
Today October 24, 2007
“Good morning mr fierce! I just saw you cycle past me in kennington but you were too lost in music to see me waving frantically at you. Xxxx” Jenny Fire 09:40am
Jenny, she is so cool!!
“Lunch? Love u. Very busy now. Kiss” Julien 3:04pm
“I m just leavin work right now. Where r u.” Julien 5:05pm
“Hey honey bun, it was lovely seeing you on Friday. Are you ok, what happened you and Julian seemed so happy, ah sweetie you will sort it out. Xxx” Angeline 8:56pm
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Guilty silence
I've been feeling sick the whole day.
I can't erase last Saturday morning from my memory.
I've been thinking that everytime I kiss Julien or hug him, he did the same with Philip. He snogged and touched him and now he is back to me.
I haven't eaten anything either today. Apart from my tummy ache, I was very nervous with the Julien matter.
At night, we went to the movies to see 'Rendition' and when we were coming back, I couldn't any more and even though he was sweet and talking a lot the whole time, I just couldn't bear it anymore.
I asked him when he was going to see the place in Angel. It sounds like a girl in Eurostar has offered him a room in Angel as she lives there and it is spared. That would place him near Kings Cross where Eurostar is moving into on November 14.
He explained that the girl named Chloe hasn't come around his office as she said she would, so he hasn't been able to arrange anything.
Why? I am just wondering, "I feel a little low".
"Whatever you need to tell me please say", he said.
I felt nervous, I couldn't speak. I didn't know how to start... then I decided to jump out, "well, I don't know if we'll be able to live together, Julien".
He paused and then he asked why.
"Well, whenever something like last Friday happens again, what am I going to do?" I didn't imply it would happen again but if it does, again as taking for granted that it is gonna occur, what would happen then. I wanted him to answer those questions, I wanted to see what his vision was.
In a way, I was really expecting him to say: "no babe, I want to live with you and no babe, it won't happen again, promise!! and it was a mistake"..., instead he just kept quiet.
I continued talking and for my disappointment, he just didn't say anything. I was shocked.
We arrived home and in the elevator, I looked at him and forced him to look at me. His look was hard, he was looking at me with pain...
I asked him what he was thinking but he just didn't answer.
I entered in the room, left my stuff and took off my clothes. He went to the kitchen, ate something and then laid down on the bed. I couldn't believe this... he was not saying anything, neither good nor bad, nothing.
He closed his eyes and I turned the laptop on. I sat down waiting for him to say something. Then he asked me for the ashtray as he took a cigarette and smoke.
Then he laid down again and covered himself with the duvet. Unbelievable!!
I carried on with the PC and in a moment, he looked up and said "hey babe, what are you doing?"
I replied I was on the computer and kept quiet. He carried on sleeping.
I turned the laptop off and went to bed with him.
I couldn't believe it! Such a coward!
I can't erase last Saturday morning from my memory.
I've been thinking that everytime I kiss Julien or hug him, he did the same with Philip. He snogged and touched him and now he is back to me.
I haven't eaten anything either today. Apart from my tummy ache, I was very nervous with the Julien matter.
At night, we went to the movies to see 'Rendition' and when we were coming back, I couldn't any more and even though he was sweet and talking a lot the whole time, I just couldn't bear it anymore.
I asked him when he was going to see the place in Angel. It sounds like a girl in Eurostar has offered him a room in Angel as she lives there and it is spared. That would place him near Kings Cross where Eurostar is moving into on November 14.
He explained that the girl named Chloe hasn't come around his office as she said she would, so he hasn't been able to arrange anything.
Why? I am just wondering, "I feel a little low".
"Whatever you need to tell me please say", he said.
I felt nervous, I couldn't speak. I didn't know how to start... then I decided to jump out, "well, I don't know if we'll be able to live together, Julien".
He paused and then he asked why.
"Well, whenever something like last Friday happens again, what am I going to do?" I didn't imply it would happen again but if it does, again as taking for granted that it is gonna occur, what would happen then. I wanted him to answer those questions, I wanted to see what his vision was.
In a way, I was really expecting him to say: "no babe, I want to live with you and no babe, it won't happen again, promise!! and it was a mistake"..., instead he just kept quiet.
I continued talking and for my disappointment, he just didn't say anything. I was shocked.
We arrived home and in the elevator, I looked at him and forced him to look at me. His look was hard, he was looking at me with pain...
I asked him what he was thinking but he just didn't answer.
I entered in the room, left my stuff and took off my clothes. He went to the kitchen, ate something and then laid down on the bed. I couldn't believe this... he was not saying anything, neither good nor bad, nothing.
He closed his eyes and I turned the laptop on. I sat down waiting for him to say something. Then he asked me for the ashtray as he took a cigarette and smoke.
Then he laid down again and covered himself with the duvet. Unbelievable!!
I carried on with the PC and in a moment, he looked up and said "hey babe, what are you doing?"
I replied I was on the computer and kept quiet. He carried on sleeping.
I turned the laptop off and went to bed with him.
I couldn't believe it! Such a coward!
Monday, October 22, 2007
Emails and texts
I keep on checking Spareroom to find a place to move in with Julien:
"Need a new flatmate?
3 months ago you used SPAREROOM.co.uk to find a new flatmate - we hope everything worked out OK?
In case the room is now empty again, we'd like to offer you 10% off a bold listing on the site. It still costs nothing to place a basic listing on SPAREROOM.co.uk, but you can expect an even bigger response from a bold listing. Also, you get Early Bird access included, meaning you can contact all room seeker listings including the very newest.
To claim your discount all you need to do is place a new listing, then click the upgrade link. Then, in the promotional code panel on the right side of the page enter the code RETURN3.
Advertise for freeBe amazed at the response rate - rent your room within days!
Place a new listing now
Find out more."
And my last days' texts:
On 19 October 2007:
“What time u off work?” Julien 4:12pm
“Kidding or what? What am i gonna do without my baby? I cant spend more than ten hours without him.” Julien 4:27pm
“So when do u finish babe” Julien 4:32pm
‘’Je t'aime et je t'attends a la gym. Bisous sur ta quequette” Julien 4:38pm
On 20 October 2007:
“Hi girls. Its Steve pitron and Megan's joint birthday drinks for small group in Fire this sat 20th. Megan has asked me to invite you. From ten pm. Guests to be in by 11. Hope to see you! x x x x :)” Steve Pitron October 20, 2007 12:13am This was sent by Jenny during the party.
On 21 October 2007:
“Sorry about dean shouting earlier. X” Rob Flatmate 1:01pm These two guys have big issues.
“Hey scott! Wots up? Hope ya ok? Id luv to c u sn! Let me know n ill cum c u or u can cum c me 4 a nice chilled wknd! X spk sn x big kiss x” Karl Pearce 2:42pm
Today, 22 October 2007:
“Hi ya. Just to say je t aime. Have a good day at work. Miss ya.” Julien 09:02am
“Im arriving at the gym babe. C u there. Love”. Julien 4:49pm
This is the 'Hunk du jour'
"Need a new flatmate?
3 months ago you used SPAREROOM.co.uk to find a new flatmate - we hope everything worked out OK?
In case the room is now empty again, we'd like to offer you 10% off a bold listing on the site. It still costs nothing to place a basic listing on SPAREROOM.co.uk, but you can expect an even bigger response from a bold listing. Also, you get Early Bird access included, meaning you can contact all room seeker listings including the very newest.
To claim your discount all you need to do is place a new listing, then click the upgrade link. Then, in the promotional code panel on the right side of the page enter the code RETURN3.
Advertise for freeBe amazed at the response rate - rent your room within days!
Place a new listing now
Find out more."
And my last days' texts:
On 19 October 2007:
“What time u off work?” Julien 4:12pm
“Kidding or what? What am i gonna do without my baby? I cant spend more than ten hours without him.” Julien 4:27pm
“So when do u finish babe” Julien 4:32pm
‘’Je t'aime et je t'attends a la gym. Bisous sur ta quequette” Julien 4:38pm
On 20 October 2007:
“Hi girls. Its Steve pitron and Megan's joint birthday drinks for small group in Fire this sat 20th. Megan has asked me to invite you. From ten pm. Guests to be in by 11. Hope to see you! x x x x :)” Steve Pitron October 20, 2007 12:13am This was sent by Jenny during the party.
On 21 October 2007:
“Sorry about dean shouting earlier. X” Rob Flatmate 1:01pm These two guys have big issues.
“Hey scott! Wots up? Hope ya ok? Id luv to c u sn! Let me know n ill cum c u or u can cum c me 4 a nice chilled wknd! X spk sn x big kiss x” Karl Pearce 2:42pm
Today, 22 October 2007:
“Hi ya. Just to say je t aime. Have a good day at work. Miss ya.” Julien 09:02am
“Im arriving at the gym babe. C u there. Love”. Julien 4:49pm
This is the 'Hunk du jour'
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Julien is a nymphomaniac
After the shower, we were feeling much better and then decided to watch a film - first we finished watching 'A.K.A.' and then, we started watching 'Mean Girls' with Lindsay Lohan. I love her!!
Julien liked the movie and he laughed a lot. That was good!
He kissed me one more time and we fell asleep again, it was 3am.
We woke up at 10am and we had breakfast. I cooked scramble eggs with ham and cheese on toast. Yummy!!
We listened to music and downloaded more things. We talked about a new flat to move into and we looked at Freedomlet and Spareroom. In November, his tenancy agreement expires and he really wants to live with me. He said he loves me and he is completely crazy with me.
I can see he really feels guilty but I don't know. Lots of things are changing. I don't know if I love him..., I guess I do but he disgusts me.
I don't trust him and don't know where all this goes.
Don't know if we'll last for long.
I am even thinking of telling him whenever he goes home to get clothes "just stay there. You didn't want to finish the relationship fighting, so now that we are okay, please go home".
Let's see.
He hugged me and kissed me and said "Je t'aime" a lot.
At 5pm after 'cocktail' and shower, we decided to go out. I suggested to go to Vauxhall to drink something or go to the movies.
We took the first option and when we arrived to RVT, it was packed. Vauxhall Hills instead was empty.
"I don't want to walk all the way to the movies" he complaint.
"Okay so what are we going to do? do you want to go to RVT?"
"Nooooooo, I hate this place."
"Okay, well help me, suggest something."
"No, we'll go wherever you want to go."
"Okay, let's go back home. Do do!"
"You really want to go home?"
"Yes and you?"
"Well, I don't want to go home but if you want."
He also dared to say "now that we look good, we can have anybody. We both can achieve everything now as there will be a time that nobody will want us".
Asshole!!
I have realized that the only way to get rid of him will be - 1. finding someone else and telling him I am sorry I am in love with someone else or, 2. if he finds someone else and leaves me.
But so far, I am telling you, I am not going.
Julien liked the movie and he laughed a lot. That was good!He kissed me one more time and we fell asleep again, it was 3am.
We woke up at 10am and we had breakfast. I cooked scramble eggs with ham and cheese on toast. Yummy!!
We listened to music and downloaded more things. We talked about a new flat to move into and we looked at Freedomlet and Spareroom. In November, his tenancy agreement expires and he really wants to live with me. He said he loves me and he is completely crazy with me.
I can see he really feels guilty but I don't know. Lots of things are changing. I don't know if I love him..., I guess I do but he disgusts me.
I don't trust him and don't know where all this goes.
Don't know if we'll last for long.
I am even thinking of telling him whenever he goes home to get clothes "just stay there. You didn't want to finish the relationship fighting, so now that we are okay, please go home".
Let's see.
He hugged me and kissed me and said "Je t'aime" a lot.
At 5pm after 'cocktail' and shower, we decided to go out. I suggested to go to Vauxhall to drink something or go to the movies.
We took the first option and when we arrived to RVT, it was packed. Vauxhall Hills instead was empty.
"I don't want to walk all the way to the movies" he complaint.
"Okay so what are we going to do? do you want to go to RVT?"
"Nooooooo, I hate this place."
"Okay, well help me, suggest something."
"No, we'll go wherever you want to go."
"Okay, let's go back home. Do do!"
"You really want to go home?"
"Yes and you?"
"Well, I don't want to go home but if you want."
I am tired of this game. I know where he wants to go but is scared to say.
"Well no, where do you want to go then? you don't want RVT, no movies, no home, there's only one more place - the 'library' (sauna)", I finally said.
"Well , but you want to go?"
"Don't know and you?"
"Well, we always have fun together there."
"So you want to go, Julien!! Why don't you just say so?"
"Cos I don't mind, if you don't want to go."
"I just don't care Juls."
"Let's go... but just if you want to go."
"Well, there's no other place to go, innit."
So we went to Chariots. I thought that he wouldn't want to go to the sauna this week as he already had his fuck of the week on Saturday. I said to myself "if he says he wants to go, I will leave him."
Then we were in the sauna and I was there with him. I'm so weak!
Lots of people looked at him and some said "he is fuckin' gorgeous". What about me? We had sex with some good ones and bad ones: one guy who scratched our cocks with his teeth a lot, another that had a big one, another that his cock was very sensitive and got boring, another that didn't do anything, a couple who were okay, one who came too quickly, another guy that joined us while we were with some others called Cameron from Australia, an older couple whom one of them had a beautiful long and thick cock and finally two guys that we followed but nothing really happened at the end.
One of them had an immense cock but I said to Julien I wanted to go. Fuck off!
The other is the guy who came to see the room in July. Eric, the Canadian guy which pics are in Gaydar with a huge cock.
Anyway, we finished with a cute guy who had an E pill so he didn't get very excited but I fucked Julien while he was sucking him and that was all.
He also dared to say "now that we look good, we can have anybody. We both can achieve everything now as there will be a time that nobody will want us".
Asshole!!
I have realized that the only way to get rid of him will be - 1. finding someone else and telling him I am sorry I am in love with someone else or, 2. if he finds someone else and leaves me.
But so far, I am telling you, I am not going.
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